I have been on Lexapro for a few years now and as I have said on this blog before, it has been the bedrock on which I stand. Lately, however, I have been wondering if the Lexapro has been lulling me into a passive state in which I have not been at my best.
Lexapro has quite effectively dulled out my feelings. I can no longer sink into a deep depression. This has been a good thing, but I also don’t feel any strong emotions when faced with problems I should be taking care of. I can ignore things that end up getting me in big trouble, but I don’t care about the consequences. I used to think I didn’t care because of my depression, but now I am wondering if that’s just the Lexapro dulling things out. I need to feel again. I need to feel so I am spurred to act.
I never thought I would want to leave the protected cocoon Lexapro has provided but I am realizing now, it’s may be doing more harm than good. What will happen when I am faced with a major depressive trama? I don’t know but somehow I feel like it’s time to pull my head out and deal with it already. Maybe the whole things is a self feeding, self defeating shit fest. Oh, woe is me, I need my Lexapro.
I haven’t made a final decision on this, but I will be talking to my doctor about it. I could always go back on Lexapro if it’s a dismal failure. I would love to know if any of you feel Lexapro or your other drugs are dulling you out too much.